Saturday, December 18, 2010 ♥
Different. ♥ 11:09 PM
Everything is so different from others? Why is it so? Am I the one causing it to be like this? Am I the problem to it? It's my first time to be in this kind of situation. I've got no idea of what am I suppose to do at times. Everyone will say it's for me to try and find out. But I've got no courage.
Sometimes I'm really tired of what it is now. Is it better back before? I think it's time for me to tune back to who I am and the year I am suppose to be. Will that be better?
I realised I've become worrying more for others than worrying for myself. Maybe I'm all along like this? Cos that's what sweetheart say. She keep telling me not be so hard on myself. Putting all the blames to myself. Thinking that I'm responsible for everything that happened.
Well, I...... cannot take it anymore. Too much running in my mind that I could even share. Some, I don't even know what I'm thinking or worrying about. Some are just too hard for me to say it out. I don't wanna hurt anyone or lose anyone. And I think that most of the problem I've to solve it myself. Cos it's in my heart, no one can do anything to it. Unless you can read my mind and understand my heart.